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Too many things to do

    
I am at the stage where I don't know what should I start because too many things come at once. Sometimes I opened my computer and I became blank. What should I do? haha. It is a tough task when you have a lot of problem that you should solve which nobody care. I know I should give extra push to finish this and surely I will. Now, I just wanted to finish this fast, get some job and money and live my life, dude.

bila nak habis ni.

What a life

    
Long ago, there is one man called Hazin. He is so blessed living with his parents and his friends. He is a good boy, and he has no girlfriend. One day he starts to live far away from home. Days after days, he feels lonely. He wanted to share his feelings to the one he loved, but everytime he is about to tell them, they often said that he should adapt and be patience. He knows that he should be patience and he is just wanted to share but often he is interrupted before he finished. Until one day, after he is too tired to listen the same thing over and over again, he decides to leave them and start to share his feelings to God. He feels good for about a year, but his belief is not as firm as his thought. The devils are more patient than him. The devils slowly lead him to the part of was was in his ibadat until he is tired enough to do ibadat. Slowly the devils start to whisper in his heart, until one day the whispering "your prayer is unanswered" gets him leaving his prayer mat, and start to learn things on the internet. He finds many ways to clam his heart because he feels like nobody understands him. Eventually, he became Atheis.

Since then, everybody he knew curse and boycott him.

Striving

    
Jika aku gambarkan keadaan perjalanan aku sekarang ni ibarat aku di dalam satu pertandingan memasak bersama beberapa tukang masak yang hebat hebat belaka. Tugasan setiap sorang tukang masak tu ialah menyediakan masakan yang dia sendiri suka. Sedang asyik semua tukang masak memasak, aku sibuk menjenguk dapur tukang masak yang lain. Aku harap bila siap nanti bolehlah nak rasa sedikit. Tapi bila semua tukang masak dah siap, mereka berebut rebut meminta juri menilai masakan mereka. Memang tak dapat rasa pun. Kemudian baru aku sedar, dapur aku sendiri belum berasap!

Nak potong bawang putih ke bawang merah dulu?

Anak jadi tuan

    
Hati ini pedih melihat kasih sayang ibu terpaksa dicurahkan kepada cucu melebihi anaknya sendiri. Seorang ibu tidak perlu dibebankan dengan kehadiran cucu yang ditinggalkan oleh anaknya sendiri, lebih lebih lagi apabila dia masih mempunyai anak yang masih memerlukan kasih sayang daripada seorang ibu. Kenapa perlu bebankan ibu dengan anak kita? Sepatutnya waktu sekarang, kita perlu menyenangkan hati ibu. Tidak puaskah selama kita membebankan ibu sehingga kita dewasa dan sekarang ibu perlu teruskan tanggungjawab membesarkan anak kita?

Entah apa apa.

Keep your circle small

    
Ada kalanya aku bukan seorang yang terus menerus membuat kawan. Biarkan diri aku hanyut dengan masa dan keadaan. Tapi dunia telah berubah terlalu banyak, sehingga sungai yang menghanyutkan diri aku menjadi terlalu likat untuk aku terus hanyut, menjadi terlalu sukar. Biarpun aku terfikir adakah ia akan menjadi keras suatu hari nanti? Jika iya, nampak gayanya terpaksalah aku berjalan dan menikmati apa entah yang ada di hilir sana.

"It is tracheous to know a person is more than a person." filem Paper Town (2015).

Love, Arif.