Apr 24, 2017

6

When your life is fucking weird. who to blame?

I have my mind distorted very quick. I feel so wrong. "My family shouldn't do this to me.". I don't know if they would care if I die. Because they never understand and they don't even know my suffer. Bring back my gold times.

Hate, Arif.

Mar 1, 2017

5

Perubahan bukannya sentiasa ke arah yang lebih baik, tetapi boleh jadi sebaliknya. Walau bagaimanapun, yang dikatakan "perubahan ke arah lebih baik" juga tidak semestinya baik, ada yang terpesong akidahnya, ada yang terlalu terbuka fikirannya dan menjauhi agama. Aku menilai dari sudut Islam, agama yang mulia, maka pasti dari sudut pandangan aku mempelajari Islam, bermazhab Syafi'e, berakidah Ahli Sunnah Wal Jamaah itu adalah perubahan yang terbaik.

Kelalaian dalam menuntut ilmu agama sebenarnya punca terjadinya seorang Islam itu mudah mempercayai tiadanya Tuhan, merasa agama itu merosakkan malah tidak menolak hubungan sejenis. Agama itu untuk diselami, dihayati. Ajarlah anak menuntut agama sebelum kamu memaksa mereka menuntut ilmu dunia, kerana agama itu indah dan tidak menerima agama itu rosak lagi merosakkan.

Jauhilah pemikiran yang menjauhkan anda dari agama, menolak bermazhab dan berakidah yang salah. Berdoalah, sementara pintu taubat masih terbuka seluasnya.

Love, Arif.

Jan 17, 2017

4

Been reading for quite some time. Reading is soo tiring when it comes to academic journals. I came across many terms which I don't have any idea about it (even if I tried to go for another sources, it showed another term haha) and one of them is "cospeciation". By the way, it is an interesting journey since I jumped into molecular biology, and perhaps, evolutionary biology. Learning nowadays, should be a quick process. I read and do laboratory works at the same time (sebab nak GOT). Good luck!

Love, Arif.

Jan 5, 2017

3

Happy new year! I don't understand what is so special about celebrating new year except for fireworks and public holiday. I understand that the number changed but I don't feel it, it is just not too special to me (or maybe any occasions had not been really special to me anymore). Anyway, it has been good year, lots of ups and downs, lots of people leaving and continue their life as usual with some of us got married, congratulations and I wish you all a happy family.

I am currently working on my literature review (not a good start for 2017) because I need to read, re-read and most importantly, to write. Well at least I have spent at least 2 hours a day to do this whole thing at night because I spend the whole day in the lab. It's hard I know.

Love, Arif.