Jan 30, 2014

the only miracle

there were quite a number of times, that good things come into my life. regardless the bad luck happened to me and I don't say that it didn't affect my life while it apparently does. 

I survived in many ways, though I survived from terribly emotional pain, from a so-called love in the early child and some unspoken things, because I don't really talk much in the past; my friends made me realize about my anti-social stuff so I tried to make those thing invisible.

I don't know I have so much time thinking, mostly when I didn't talk, but I am not a reader, I didn't read much. so when things failed, I listed out my uneasy stuff in me, and tried to make them invisible. yes, I still have those but I made them invisible. 


but ever since I tried to deny what critiques came, I figured out there is more important things that I need to do, rather than trying to hide something from everyone. To believe in miracles.

because miracles are beyond our minds. and it happened to me, many times.

Jan 29, 2014

hilang dan hadir

dalam banyak persoalan dalam hidup kita,
cuba hilangkan semuanya,
dan hadirkan apa yang tiada.

sesungguhnya Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang kita rasa.

Jan 24, 2014

pulang

suasana memang kerap membaham kesinambungan emosi aku, bila masa aku gembira mula dia merubah rasa. perasaan tu sebenarnya cuma rasa, yang pelbagai jika disenaraikan. dan salah satunya impian, kau buat sesuatu yang kau rasa produktif hanya kerana pandangan masa hadapan, atau impian. tapi sedar atau tidak, aku pulang dengan rasa yang lebih besar, lebih teguh dari sebelumnya. yang kau takan pernah bayangkan selamanya.

kecuali kau sedia mengenali indahnya agama.