I survived in many ways, though I survived from terribly emotional pain, from a so-called love in the early child and some unspoken things, because I don't really talk much in the past; my friends made me realize about my anti-social stuff so I tried to make those thing invisible.
I don't know I have so much time thinking, mostly when I didn't talk, but I am not a reader, I didn't read much. so when things failed, I listed out my uneasy stuff in me, and tried to make them invisible. yes, I still have those but I made them invisible.
but ever since I tried to deny what critiques came, I figured out there is more important things that I need to do, rather than trying to hide something from everyone. To believe in miracles.
because miracles are beyond our minds. and it happened to me, many times.