please please be honest, I am nothing. O Allah the Most High, I need some vision of life; a strength. living in fakhsa' walmungkar. I am very soft when I am thinking about you, and I couldn't be what I want to be as I try to be a perfect servant of You the Most Beneficent. lots of thing I was thinking of are useless. well, I hope I won't do the thing that You forbid, I do really hope so.